Adonai, Elohim,YHWH, Allah

still, after all this;

I’m so ready, and so so desperately willing to receive some sort of sign, from some sort of god.

without doubt there is no need for faith i know but, it feels insulting to all those who suffer and die cruelly, who are forsaken while crying out God’s name to just accept and operate on blind faith.

I’m so ready to accept some sort of signal, some sort of understanding, that it is all somehow, impossibly all worth it, all for some grand, masterful reason.

God, please…

meet me halfway, a quarter, a quarter of a quarter of a way!

If I was made in that image, if God could accept me as I am..