the note: cautionary tale

i never forgot, it just wasn’t enough.

no amount would have ever been enough because as Adrian said in the car ride to the birthday dinner “i don’t think you’re capable of loving yourself.”

they’re correct.

not myself, not other people.

not sincerely anyway, not genuinely, not truly, not honestly.

of what use to the world is a vacuum of a person devoid of love?

“𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖍𝖆𝖉 𝖘𝖔 𝖒𝖚𝖈𝖍 𝖕𝖔𝖙𝖊𝖓𝖙𝖎𝖆𝖑 𝖞𝖊𝖙 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖑𝖊𝖙 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖘𝖊𝖑𝖋 𝖋𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝖎𝖓𝖙𝖔 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖊𝖓𝖉𝖑𝖊𝖘𝖘 𝖆𝖇𝖞𝖘𝖘 𝖔𝖋 𝖓𝖆𝖛𝖊𝖑 𝖌𝖆𝖟𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖋𝖊𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖘𝖔𝖗𝖗𝖞. 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖇𝖊𝖙𝖗𝖆𝖞𝖊𝖉 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖘𝖊𝖑𝖋 𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖓𝖔𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌. 𝖞𝖔𝖚’𝖗𝖊 𝖆 𝖋𝖆𝖎𝖑𝖚𝖗𝖊 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖉𝖊𝖘𝖊𝖗𝖛𝖊 𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖘.”

correct.