solve et coagula

nothing in the history of my entire life has ever

i never feel as good just normally than when im fucked up off something

doesn’t matter what

in fact is the only time i ever feel even slightly good

is when im this trashed

that’s what will do it

that’s

tell my mother and sister i love them

tell my father i pity him

tell my wife

tell my wife

i looked for her everywhere and in the eyes of everyone i took to bed and that

it was real because losing it was my undoing.

farewell.