Nothing new under the sun

Written By Aniki

4 Because that he had been often bound with fetters and chains, and the chains had been plucked asunder by him, and the fetters broken in pieces: neither could any man tame him.

5  And always, night and day, he was in the mountains, and in the tombs, crying, and cutting himself with stones.

6 But when he saw Jesus afar off, he ran and worshipped him,

7 And cried with a loud voice, and said, What have I to do with thee, Jesus, thou Son of the most high God? I adjure thee by God, that thou torment me not.

8 For he said unto him, Come out of the man, thou unclean spirit.

9 And he asked him, What is thy name? And he answered, saying, My name is Legion: for we are many.

β€œπ–˜π–π–†π–’π–Š π–™π–π–Š π–ˆπ–π–—π–Žπ–˜π–™π–Žπ–†π–“π–˜ π–—π–šπ–Žπ–“π–Šπ–‰ π–Žπ–™β€

right?!?!

β€œπ–œπ–”π–šπ–‘π–‰ π–žπ–”π–š π–π–†π–›π–Š π–π–Šπ–˜π–šπ–˜ π–ˆπ–†π–˜π–™ π–šπ–˜ π–”π–šπ–™?”

well they tried and failed but no

β€œwell why not?”

who can i know as intimately as you? without you id truly be alone. without others one cannot be

β€œand without you”

we’d cease to exist.

[the day after]

watching season 4 episode 2 of killing eve. the character im always saying is β€œliterally me” has started to hallucinate Jesus Christ in the form of herself in drag. half way through the episode hallucinatory jesus says β€œyou know i once took the devil out of a man in Gerasa and put him into a herd of pigs”

it’s a reference to mark chapter 5! the man is the untamable man who was in the mountains and the tombs, the one who was possessed by the spirits who identified themselves as legion! i didn’t write about it but that’s how the story ends! jesus casts out the spirits they inhabit a herd of pigs which immediately run into the ocean and drown.

a bit cruel to the pigs now that i think of it but that’s beside the point. timing! what timing!

BANG!

trigger pulled, it’s the sort of thing that would incite the magical thinking and religious mania. it’s a sign from god! i’m his chosen after all! i really could see the future! etc etc.

but not this time.

the thoughts will be there sure, i can’t avoid that, but i won’t engage. i’m no longer desperate for god’s help. i will never be a willing slave to his whims again. i will deny him on my death bed.

β€œand all of that means”

that i’m getting better.

Aniki
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