sorry,went crazy.

obsession is not immediate, it stalks you, it creeps up on you until it’s too late to escape it.

no distinction between hate and desire, pursuit and courtship

No man knows how bad he is till he has tried very hard to be good.

the monotony of it is often what makes it convincing

corpse of an orchid, sometimes you reach an end and then continue

You find out the strength of a wind by trying to walk against it, not by lying down.

I still have no idea what I mean when I say God, but I see it everywhere. I mean it intensely.

Does anyone escape their chains by forgetting they are there? surely in some sense? but is that worth anything in comparison to actual freedom?

what it is is that i wanted to be the things i admire i wanted to be the things i found beautiful and i became obsessed with that