forever

you know i noticed today that i haven’t been depressed in weeks. cancer cured my depression how funny! ironically no longer preoccupied with dying now that i actually am.

well i could talk in the usual circles and wax poetic but i’m too sleepy for all that currently.

it’s strange, i have been for the last few days since the CT scan- it’s like a tidal wave of molasses. A particularly viscous sleep, perpetually creeping. what am i thinking about now that it’s caught up, now that my eyelids are impossibly heavy and my blinks last a second too long?

i’m thinking

i’m thinking about nothing.